Diary Comparison

Friday 5th December 1834

Ann Walker’s Entry

Anne Lister’s Entry

No entry today.

[up at] 8 50/..

[to bed at] 11 10/..

no kiss fine but rather hazy morning Fahrenheit 49º at 9 40/.. at which hour breakfast – and reading the Morning Herald till 11 – with the sempstresses doing the blue room druggit – read A– [Adney] my letter t[o] π [Mariana]   I saw she did not like the conclusion    thank you again and again my dearest Mary for all your good wishes and kindness about me and mine   ‘the heart that has truly loved loved never forgets’    ever very affectionately and especially yours AL   I said I knew what she was thinking   it struck myself too that the poetical quotation was equivoq[u]e   and I would write the letter over again   I see A– [Adney] would soon be jealous without care on my parttill one rewriting my letter to π [Mariana] for altered it a good deal     afraid Mariana will have thought me long in writing hope she will make allowances for me now in consideration of my having written so much earlier the last time than she expected – ‘I am busy as usual; but, worse than this, I am unsettled, that is, the alterations in the house, however small they may be, have thrown all my things into confusion – books, papers, all have to be re-assorted – In destroying many of the latter, I hope I may comfort myself with the idea of following your good example – I hope I shall leave behind me as little as possible to make you doubt my prudence – Because you were thankful we did not happen to meet, I will be so too – you hope we shall meet, by and by; and I am satisfied – you are right to consider not for me, but for yourself – Perhaps I have been more obliged to the exercise of moral courage than you have been; and this may make the difference between us’ – did rather doubt her being still so much and kindly interested about Shibden – shall have pleasure in being more communicative in future – Long explanation of where the man servants sleep, cabinets d’eau etc. etc.   mentioned the 2 new windows ‘looking upon what used to be the terrace walk, now lowered’ – mentioned our having been in York – and my having heard from Norcliffe a long account of his American travels and my having told him he absolutely parcouru the united states and that I wished I had run over his ground but dared not attempt to calculate now what I might be able to do

in future – my aunt much the same as for some months past – sends her kind love – ‘God bless you my dearest Mary! Ever very especially and affectionately yours AL’ sent off by George about 3 p.m. my letter to ‘Mrs. Lawton Lawton hall Lawton Cheshire’ then wrote 3 pages and ends to Mrs. Norcliffe – beginning with ‘My dear Mrs. Norcliffe Had I no other reason for writing, I could not help offering you my very sincere condolence on the death of poor Fisher . . . . . . . sincere condolence to her’ (Burnett) ‘too, as being 2nd, perhaps, only to you in knowing thoroughly the real of her departed friend – all who knew him at all, owed him, at least, the tribute of respect; and none pays it with more heartfelt sincerity than I do – But, my dear Mrs. Norcliffe, forgive me, if, for the 1st time in the twenty-four years of your unvaried kindness to me, I doubt whether you still give me as much credit, on the score of sincerity, as I feel to deserve – I have lived too long not to have learnt how fatally presumptive evidence may be sometimes turned against us all – I have almost daily, since my return home on the 30th of August, thought of writing to you; and my not having written long ago, had certainly not originated in any diminished anxiety on your account, or in any falling-off remembrance of all your kindness – you will have heard that my friend and I passed thro’ York last week, and drank tea in the Minster court – there was a something in the manner of Charlotte and Mrs. Milne, which struck me forcibly – I hope I was wrong in understanding that anyone, much less yourself, believed it possible, I should intentionally, at any time, or in any place, neglect an old friend from such a paltry motive as I am ashamed even to name – I was three days in London (arrived on Sunday 8 June), the whole of one of which was spent in sickness and in bed, and two in driving about town, and probably within a stone’s cast of Cavendish square – Tell me, my dear Mrs. Norcliffe, do you believe, I should have passed, without one syllable of inquiry, the door of an old friend whose bread I had eaten so often, and so happily? Do you believe this? I neither knew of, nor thought of your being in London – I said so in the Minster-Court, and grieved over the singularity of my two friends still bringing forward arguments with seeming intention to disprove the correctness of what I said – But enough of this: – It hurts and disappoints me – I really value your good opinion and regard; and it is not, and shall not be, my fault if I do not keep them both: – but I should deserve neither, if my mind and heart were of that of narrow kind which seems to have been supposed’ – should be delighted to hear good accounts of her …. hope Norcliffe has got my letter – ‘my kindest regards to you all – Ever my dear Mrs. Norcliffe affectionately yours A Lister’ – then writing copy of letter to Lady Stuart de R- [Rothesay] – dinner at 6 – coffee – lost 5 hits – a little while with my father and Marian – 20 minutes with my aunt – sat talking to Adney and admiring with her the blue room – very fine day – sorry not to have stirred out – 

[In margin:]

A- [Adney] cross or queer this morning because she fancied me going to interfere with her in arranging her books

Note by this morning’s post from Mr. Parker to ask to see the trust deed of Mrs. Ferguson’s (late Firth, late Bolland) £2000 – her daughter Mrs. Graham dead –

Courtesy of West Yorkshire Archive Service, Calderdale SH:7/ML/E/17/0120 & SH:7/ML/E/17/0121

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